Day 1

Barack Obama was reelected into a second term to lead the united states. I am coming of of 5 days of 13 our night shifts in response to Hurricane Sandy. I delirious trying to change my circadian rhythm back to days in order to be ready to run my first marathon on Saturday, November 10 2012. I am lonely and empty. I am desperately seeking happiness, forgiveness, and calm in my life. I want to be able to achieve a sense of stability to pursue adventure and travel. I am shallow these days and it shows in my writings, my thoughts, my interactions. My remembrance of fragments of who I am remind me that I was connected, spiritual, and caring. I want to reconnect and love again. I have been drinking too much again and loosing my self and humiliating my character. It is not my true self. My adventure, my quest, my life begins today. I have had many first days, fore I recognized this looking over my old journals...stacks and stacks of well made books that were abused with only a few entries and then tossed aside. Embarrassing the digital domain I will no longer be wasting well crafted books. Enjoyment of Life or liberation from life...that is what I seek. My approach is improve upon the following areas...mind, body and soul. cliche but I think this trilogy has been well vetted by people who have delved much deeper than I to achieve understanding and truth in life. Mind, I will seek stability, happiness, intelligence, wisdom and knowledge. Body, I will seek purity, health, strength and control over my well being. Soul, I will seek understanding, compassion, spirituality, and love. I will break these down and possibly expand on these further, my goal is just to remain flexible and adaptable. I am a fortunate person to have been around the world and experience what I have witnessed and learned from, and I must dust off the memories and use this as a platform for proceeding hence for forward. I am mortal, I will die, but while I have life and energy, I must...I must master my talents that can help others and become one with now. Love, peace, and happiness.